50mg/H IPECACUANHA DE-JE VOUS. TREATMENT. 23/8/90

The gerneral feeling is every where. In them cockroach towers
out on the heated streets, .all is vl sable the same but it is not
even in the heat either.But in something el so the feeling.

Significance is re-rising into a pin.cle.'The figure of Piast-

-ic squonk in front of mee. .He's raving about the subject he
favours most in these atmospheres. .De'ja vous and seems as
always to have suussed it;, out this time. Everything has been
leading to this one moment.All other flash backs of sight have
lead to this one. Contained in this De'je vous is all other on'es
throughout the t'me past. There is the knowledge of all other
De'je vous in this one. . .the obvious psycotic reptile response
that is the point of so many "end of conversations" to unknown
people on the top of a double-decker bus passing through Kings

-cross. .Want to see my Michael Ryan ?
End of conversation and the babbling begines and 'the heat rises
is it the heat of this feeling of what ever it is significance in
the air. " Sideways. . .it must all be going in sideways. .The
De'je Vous is in the heat. .coming in sideways, .all perception
Is going directly into the memory, .its by passing the normal
brain. .No Its stagger. . it must be going in to both. .there is a
kind of flicker and the eyes regester the scene, .and the scene
flickers between that in the memory and whet there is outside.
In the memory in the head there is a great drag of information
that comes vomiting out with that first recognition of the seen
and that of the other De'je vous from the past'that come out
with the last.

The patient began then to gibber, .meaningless words like
", Bag of Gibblets. . " and other non-sense'I was forced th-
orough my proffession conduct duties and that of a human-

-being needeng peace from this gibber and assult on my
reason. .1 had to inject the patient with,.near leathal dose
of sedative to ressume normal condition with the feeling of
significance fading in to oblivion just as the patient did.
Funnllly enougth. .funny not for the contents of what he sa'd
but for the compelling urge to record these words with so
much care or even to record them at all. .these were his last
words in sleep. . " The oblivion. .its all here. .there ' s nothing
here at all. . .the seven spheres of oblivion. .I'm right on the
edge. .theres nothing left. " 7Mg of Pholcod^e 50mg PER hour.

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isftght like jewels lights on the hor zon flicker w'th the com-
,ing frosts of w nter. .Heat in the c'ty f ghts with the on set
gf winter. The small simey mushroom flees from the frost.
The f'rst frost of w'nter drives these magical beings underground s
ggsin for another year. Sky stars in the full moon haze of cold   |
flicker and the moss covered rocks that have remained 'n this   |
clearing .in the forest untouched or seen by the ta'nting human eye1
for many years are this night doomed by human interpretations.
The rocks as I walk down under the trees become many people
;ying in the. moss. I expect the patient to jump from the darkness
gt any moment and attack me.This turns the roek into human
form. Curled up seeping people under these trees in the edge
of the clearing where nobody has been for years. .Take a bus
hitch a ride 200 hundred miles from the city. .into a certain
small village with the name Penrhyndeudraeth in tcie nbrth of
wales, .walk up past the trailer campsite.On towards a dead
-end road that curies past the quarry...here jump a fence and
walk through two fields, .see a deserted dwelling house now
converted into cow shelter, .take a left under the wire fence
at the entrance to this place, .here is the clearng with its rocks
covered in decades of moss Oak tree clearing where two Hillb'lly
freaks sat in the wet autumn eating dead bats and worms out of
a tin. .the fire made of damp rotten wood with its cone ofp'led
wood drying on the small flame..dead b'rds and magots out of
a tin can. .up in the hills where nobody had ibeen for ten's of
years, .outcast death's hitch hikers, .lost in the hi"s fresh from
the city and its flicker 1''ghts to the ulace where it seems the
electr'cal piolons begin. .buzzing in the damo sir.
Non-sensical. words spout from t^ie elastic oat ent in the clear
"ing. .stuffing crockadlals sk'n potatoes into a stuo'd mouth.
Meaningless words taken from tJhe mouths of others..with the
^fected sayings worn out by over use into gibber, .stumbling
^d awkward in actions and brain.Meaningless repetitions of
Ghleche' junk talk. .parot style brerin functions even here in the
^ood .Shifted sudonley into the other clearing that is not in the
'nner images stored in the head, .cut all memores of s''mular
^tions.. cercumstances and thought, .none of these are the same
^ seeing this scene for the first time. .but still the patient retain
^ith stupid inflexibilty the pest thoughts and words transformed
'^to utter rubish by meaningless repeat.
^minister ]43Mg. Ethanolamine oleate.still nothing left^ Q^