My hobbey as I was saying a while back io dissimular words-
Is to destroy all divisions between learning . Learning. . . ? Ha
such fake terminology. As if there is anything to be leamt.There
is nothing, ..for there is no Science.There is no Religlon,.there
is no Art. all is dead and never existed before.There is no div-

iMsion. . .all is chaos the boundaries unbroken. .. Sllven a thou-
-sand specks scattered and from this star carpet of Celestrial
anti-bodies will the disease of duality be cured. ..Mad christ-

i»-ian mind fragmentation.. .A system not idea..that has infected

all'that we see hear or do..
Dug deep into the infected . skitzo science. . .split brained

subject s one and all. .but al 1 of this will never last as long
as my own particular system of beliefs. . .That there is nothing
as stable as a free fall plumet into the bottomless depths of
oblivion.. .never to reach thd»s mythical place for there is none
but always to be falling in that direction.. .as I was saying. .
or writing at the time. . . always going mad .. .going but never
reaching. .nedd I say again. .Mythical place. And. believe me
when I tell you that there 's a long way to fall before any solid
insane is reached.. .an infinated drop. .in to nowhere, .what
othece hobbey could keep me so occup'ed as this one. .1 could
use up twenty lives of spare time with this one. . .If I hadnt have|
taken quite so many short cut in the early days .               ,'1
Im coming back out of this Trance where the external world is
oblitterated and now Im finding this disturbing Interviewer sitting
opposite asking me why I havent got any Hobbey or spare time
activity. .How could I tell her. . something inoffensive. .normal
sounding. .mad ... .only going, .flying kites.. .the usual...     '

and explain the structure of your perceived universe in that tiny
, little space on the form. .the cinema.. . .cant be done.. .thats

all really. .... .now what did I say and what did I think.. .'the

eternal conflict between internal and external.. .all right here

in this pathetic job interview.

The internal dialogue is unstoppable, .it is the omnipotient
overflowing words of gas that slip between the minds fingers
liquid ungrasping. .and continues as if it could do anything else
deep down in the mind of this character, .in his head down rain
Sodden streets and into supermarket mentality, .leaving a trail
that glistems like thexradan slime of the slug. .in moonlight. .
along the shelves of incessant family packed this anfl that.
??-       .

No longer had the voice of the external finished but the inner
begins on its endless path once more.never one to be quenched
nor stiffled. .a fire of words spread rapid consuming brain cells
and vacant thought channels until they dance with animated ac-

-tions frantic on the verge of exhustion. .manic cells rampage
possessed with what they used to call "demon" words and mul-

-tl - personality collisions .Scatter individual word fragments
disentangled from their meanings, .conventional sentance stru-

-ctures pour over the dead baked beans and spagetti family
packs. . .fizzel in multi-buy yogurts festering in new and exh-

-alted life.. .charged with word powderfirom fragmented granite
inner mind voice. . .The objects-themselves gain word oriental -

-ed consciousness and start a discusion on the by products of
family packaged morality and side effects of advertisers fact-

-ory farmeddream. . . .but who is the main character any how ?
Me the words of inner or that vessal to my words that packag-
ing ofl dialogues inner bursting with unformed foetal vvords
mutating before our very eyes. . ;I am the star here. .you hav-.

-ent even come within 10 metres of the external ones name
yet. .as for me I dont need one. . the nameless one liquid-

-like pours through the inner ear.. .down hill all the way.

if you get my drift.

The inner voice has a point but of the externmal name;

I fear M It is not revealed until chaptar eight.
So hold your breathless soundless words and wait.

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